Layoffs

Oh man, I have been freaking out. Yesterday I get a bunch of calls/e-mails from co-workers (not SLC ones) about layoffs and asking me if I was okay...so my first reaction was relief because I had gone through another round and still had my job. Then someone sent me a link to a newspaper article about KPMG announcing major layoffs, so I read it and the corresponding comments and was starting to get scared. Some of the comments were from people back East saying it was a "blood-bath", and so many people were cut. Then I get an e-mail from the HR Partner (who for one I have never met, and two, the last time he was here he laid off my manager) that he is flying in tomorrow (he sent the e-mail yesterday) and he wants to sit with me individually to talk about changes in our practice. I FREAKED OUT!! I tried to call Mom and Dad but they were unavailable so I called Chase and Lara and their support really helped me. I mean I just bought a car, our house payment, kevin still in school, we want to try and start having kids, etc., etc. I could hardly breathe. So last night was awful and then this morning I find out that the Partner is meeting with all 3 of us and I am last. Ky goes in first and comes out saying he got laid off. I'm dying sitting there while Jonathan takes his turn next. When he comes out he says he didn't get laid off. I asked if he knew about me and he said he didn't. So I go in....and....he tells me I am safe. I just about died, I almost cried I was so happy, yet sad for Ky. Then he goes on to say that he knows we were already strapped and stressed with just the three of us and it is just going to get worse now with two. We won't be able to get any outside help, but the projects have to be done on-time, so...pretty much we are going to be working over-time (without getting paid extra). Well I am thrilled, frustrated, excited, pained, overwhelmed, overjoyed, numb, everything all at once. These times........oh geez.